PMDD and Plans

I have PMDD. At least I have all the symptoms, according to a medical website. So it's not menopause, which is good. I'm too young for menopause anyway. PMDD is some kind of PMS on crack. Irritability, mood swings, depression, and other fun symptoms means that I'm a wreck. The best way to combat it? No caffeine, no alcohol and more exercise. Yeah right. I can't function without my bowl of coffee each morning. I don't drink a lot of alcohol now anyways since I'm still breastfeeding, so I don't see how taking away my one or two beers a week is going to help. And chasing after two kids isn't exercise enough? Mental note: ride your horse!

I'm sad that it's almost August. I had high hopes for this summer. I guess I can still dream, but most of my plans seem like pipe dreams now. I wanted a beach vacation, or a trip to someplace we've never been, but at this point, I'll settle for a camping trip. I just want to be away from home for about a week so I can face the coming winter here again. This past spring we were talking about moving, but things at Clint's work haven't panned out, so we're going to stay another year here. It was such a long, long winter here last year. This house is groaning at the seams, and Evie's condition and the uncooperative weather seemed to combine to test my mettle. A few times I thought it had beaten me, but I'll have to face it again this winter. I have a list of things to be done to combat it. I'm calling it my sanity list, because I need some kind of progress to feel like an entire season hasn't been wasted. Top of the list? New floors, livingroom furniture and a decent TV and French door for the gameroom. Not much, right? Not to mention upgrading the electric. I'm hoping to get the sanity list finished in August, since fall really is right around the corner.