Cleanse Day 18: I'm Afraid of Food

It's Day 18 and I feel great. I've lost weight and two people have said I look good--healthy glowing skin, and I look 10 years younger. I've enjoyed the yoga and support groups, and especially the 12 meals a week prepared by a chef. I'm really hopeful that I can keep the healthy lifestyle going. But there are only 3 days left of the cleanse.

And I'm afraid of all that food out there in the real world.

First, I'm afraid of coffee. I want coffee. The teas just aren't satisfying like the coffee was, and I'm sure still is. Once the cleans is over I'll add honey to my tea, but if that doesn't help, it's back to coffee I go, knowing that I will be it's slave forever if that happens.

And bread. Though all the Clean book's discussion of wheat and sugars have turned me off of bread, I think I'm going to expand my horizons and make more of my own with some alternative ingredients. I love bread. And if there's one thing I like about cooking, it's the ability to experiment. I'm sure I can find a brown rice bread, or another acceptable grain to use instead of wheat. And if they don't cut the mustard, I'll make my own crusty, soft white bread, or my beloved Irish soda bread. These breads have just 4 ingredients. Maybe I can substitute grains and buttermilk and come up with a healthier alternative. But I just can't live without bread.

I haven't craved anything else, except maybe some chocolate. That I can handle with the organics at the co-op. I don't see how a little dark chocolate here and there is a bad thing, right?